Random ruminations of a sassy Scot
My thoughts on life, love, the world, my ambitions, hopes and dreams
Hello anxiety my old friend…we meet again. It’s been a tough week and I’ve found myself feeling triggered and anxious. It’s been a while since I last felt this way and I’m not relishing feeling this way at the moment. It started on Monday with a Skype call. I say call, it was more of …
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I can feel my anxiety levels rising. The date where Ireland will start to loosen the lockdown (May 18th) is approaching a little too quickly for me. I’m worried that the number of cases of Coronavirus will rise again. It feels like there are already more cars on the road. Queues for shops are longer …
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I’ve previously written about the impact of my low levels of Vitamin D on my mental and physical health. (Vitamin D, depression and me) It’s several weeks now since I finished my course of high strength Vitamin D capsules. I’ve been reluctant to go back to my GP for the repeat bloods, purely due to …
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I hope this post finds you all well. I’m following the guidelines on social distancing, working from home and only going out for essentials – food and my prescription medication. In a lot of ways, I feel that extended sick leave last year has prepared me to stay at home. Back then, home was my …
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I’ll be honest. I’m not really sure what I’m feeling. 2020 has been a strange year so far. I didn’t anticipate my relationship ending or finding out that my Vitamin D levels are low. While those events were unexpected, I certainly had no idea how much life would change as a result of the Coronavirus …
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I’m really struggling at the moment. I’m recovering from yet another chest infection, back at work so dealing with a repetition of the work issues that plagued me over the last year or so and I’ve also recently discovered that my vitamin D levels are low. This has no doubt contributed to my recent chest …
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Since being out sick unpaid last year, it’s taking me a while to get back on track financially. Don’t get me wrong, the feeling of relief on pay day knowing that I can pay my bills is huge. It’s early days and I’ve definitely overspent this month but the bills are paid. There’s food in …
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I think I’ve figured out one of the keys to my mental health struggles and my recent recurrence of anxiety. I’m terrified that I won’t be able to have a baby. I have absolutely no evidence as to my fertility or lack of. I’ve never tried to conceive and have always used contraception in my …
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I’m starting to wonder if my anxiety attack last Sunday was a sign that all isn’t 100% okay with my mental health. It’s okay if it’s not. I’d rather pick up on it early but it has left me feeling unsettled and uneasy. There’s a couple of factor’s that are playing a part and making …
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Today has seen the unwelcome return of anxiety. It started with a feeling of unease that I couldn’t quite identify the cause and spiraled from there. Actually, thinking about it a bit more, it started last night when I was feeling a bit insecure. I hate having anxiety. Not the low level anxiety, that I …
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I’m by no means an expert gardener, quite the opposite but I’m learning. I live in rented accommodation so while I have outside space, I’m keeping my garden portable! I started buying plants and pots to put them in when I was off work last year. I started with the herbs thyme and rosemary, two …
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There’s nothing I can put my finger on specifically. I just feel a bit bleurgh. I don’t think my mental health is declining again – I’m still taking my medication. I feel really tired. I feel a bit fed up and a bit blue. I’m totally lacking inspiration. I want to get into making greetings …
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I’ve never been a big fan of New Year, it’s always felt like a let down – this may or may not have something to do with an ex boyfriend ending our relationship a few hours before midnight but that’s another story. January has never been my favourite month either. It feels quite bleak and …
Follow my blog with Bloglovin 1. Get to a healthy weight – I don’t want to take medication for cholesterol and blood pressure. I need to get to a healthy weight for my height, especially if I plan to pursue my dream of having a baby. 2. Be more eco friendly – I’ve bought reusable …
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As you know, I’m back at work after a lengthy absence. It was absolutely the best thing I ever did; taking my time and listening to my body. I mean really listening to my body. I’ve learned that antibiotics work faster if you rest rather than push through, taking a few days off if necessary. …
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