Random ruminations of a sassy Scot
My thoughts on life, love, the world, my ambitions, hopes and dreams
There are some things that I just don’t understand and never will. The main one is how two people who love each other, get on well, have chemistry, enjoy talking to each other, spending time together and have a lot in common cannot continue in a relationship. My now ex and I were talking earlier, …
Continue reading “Feelings are tricky things”
I hope this post finds you all well. I’m following the guidelines on social distancing, working from home and only going out for essentials – food and my prescription medication. In a lot of ways, I feel that extended sick leave last year has prepared me to stay at home. Back then, home was my …
Continue reading “My Coronavirus diary”
I’ll be honest. I’m not really sure what I’m feeling. 2020 has been a strange year so far. I didn’t anticipate my relationship ending or finding out that my Vitamin D levels are low. While those events were unexpected, I certainly had no idea how much life would change as a result of the Coronavirus …
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I find myself single again. Last week, my now ex boyfriend told me that continuing our relationship when he couldn’t make time to spend with me wasn’t fair on me. I did not see this coming. I figured that once his work schedule change, things would get better. A week on, we are now engaged …
Continue reading “Relationship woes”
Recently, I’ve come to realise that there are events in my life that I haven’t grieved or am grieving but haven’t realised. (Grieving my childlessness) It’s made me realise that actually, I’m not good at grief. Grief is something that we will sadly all experience but nobody teaches us how to do it. It’s one …
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Having been overweight for many years, I’ve tried lots of different ways to lose weight (Slimming World, Weight watchers twice, calorie counting, low carb) and having had varying degrees of success losing and then regaining more weight, this time it needs to be different. The run up to Christmas may not be the wisest time …
Continue reading “Healthy body, healthy mind”
I feel like I’m at a real crossroads. I’m imminently about to turn 40. I think I’m still in denial about that….I don’t feel 40. I don’t even know what being 40 should feel like! In my head, I’m still 21. I think that 40 is a really grown up age, I’m nowhere near a …
I am not perfect. I make mistakes. Sometimes I speak without thinking. Sometimes what I say comes out wrong. Sometimes I say the wrong thing. Some days I feel like I can take on the world, other days getting out of bed is a challenge. I try my best. I’m still learning. My mental health …
Continue reading “A work in progress”
I’ve kept a diary for years, my memory isn’t great so it’s nice to have a record of my life. I also find it therapeutic. Its nice to have somewhere to note my thoughts, fears, worries, hopes and successes. I know that living in the past is not healthy. I am happy in the present …
Continue reading “Looking back to move forward”
As I wake to news of two shootings in the USA, one in El Paso, Texas and the other in Dayton, Ohio. I think of those whose lives have been changed irrevocably. I think of the loss and the senselessness of it. Innocent people going about their lives, enjoying a night out or shopping on …
Continue reading ““Be excellent to each other””
So as that magical day at the end of the month approaches (pay day), this month I am not looking forward to it. I look forward to pay day every month. I love seeing my bank balance look healthy and in the black – no matter how briefly – before the bill payments and other …
Continue reading “Money’s Too Tight To Mention….”
I’ve always been a worrier….if it was an Olympic sport; I’d win the gold, silver and bronze medals. Throughout my life I’ve been anxious about the usual things – exam results, interviews, medical test results and sometimes about work too. If I had a deadline approaching or a particularly tricky problem to solve but never …
