I’m still confused about the situation with my ex. I’m sad that he’s not going to be part of my future in a romantic sense. One thing I do know is that I want to be a Mum. That’s not going to happen with my ex so I have to start focussing on me, what I want and how to make motherhood happen.
While my weight has ballooned, health wise I feel better than I have for a long time. I’m nowhere near ready to reduce or stop taking my anti-depressants but I’m feeling mentally stronger too. It’s time to build on this, time to get fully healthy physically and mentally.
I deserve happiness. I deserve a chance at motherhood and the only person who can make that happen is me. I’m ready to be a Mum. All going well, life will be much less restrictive over the coming months and everything will be open again come August. I’m going to set myself the goal of dating again by September. I’ll be 41 and it’ll be the right time to find the man for me.
In the mean time; I’m going to eat well, exercise and focus on the attributes I’m looking for in a partner. Operation future starts now.
